A Nation Betrayed
A 10-Page Summary
Secret Cold War Experiments Performed
On Our Children and Other Innocent People
By Carol
Rutz
Carol Rutz’
incredible journey from mind control victim to freedom is both harrowing and
deeply inspiring. Her thorough research supporting her personal experience
provides clear evidence of deeply hidden agendas within a shadow government.
She explains how to order the thousands of pages of released government
documents upon which much of her research is based at the end of this document.
Help create a better world. Spread
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Preface
The Central Intelligence
Agency [CIA] bought my services at the tender age of four from my grandfather
in 1952. Over the next 12 years, I was tested, trained, and used in various
ways. Electroshock, drugs, hypnosis, sensory deprivation, and other types
of trauma were used to make me compliant and split my personality (create
multiple personalities for specific tasks). Each alter or personality
was created to respond to a post-hypnotic trigger, then perform an act and
not remember it later. This “Manchurian Candidate” program [1] was just
one of the operational uses of the mind control scenario by the CIA. Your
hard earned tax dollars supported this. P. xvii
The CIA financed
research project code-named MKULTRA was established to counter Soviet and
Chinese advances in brainwashing and interrogation techniques. It consisted
of 149 subprojects contracted out to at least 80 institutions. It was designed
to study the use of biological and chemical materials in altering human behavior.
CIA Director Allen Dulles approved MKULTRA on April 13, 1953. Twenty years
after the conception of the MKULTRA project, all known files pertaining to
it were ordered destroyed by [then CIA Director] Richard Helms before he retired.
In 1977, through a Freedom of Information Act [FOIA] request, 16,000 pages
of mind control documents were found, held as part of the Agency’s financial
history. Most of the important details were conveniently destroyed to conceal
their wrongdoing. p. xvi, xvii
As a survivor
of CIA programs Bluebird/Artichoke [2] and MKULTRA, I began my intense search
to document some of the mind control experiments that I was made part of.
48 years after I was first experimented on, through a series of FOIA [Freedom
of Information Act] requests to various departments of the government, I found
solid proof of my memories—nearly 18,000 pages of declassified documents from
the Bluebird/Artichoke and MKULTRA programs that validate my personal experiences.
P. xvii
One
of the documents states, [3]
“Learning studies will be instituted in which the subject will be rewarded
or punished for his overall performance and reinforced in various ways—with
electric shock, etc. In other cases drugs and psychological tricks will be
used to modify attitudes. The experimenters will be particularly interested
in dissociative states [multiple personalities or alters], and an attempt
will be made to induce a number of states of this kind, using hypnosis.” The
government had finally handed me the validation I had been searching for.
P. xvii, xviii
My goal in writing
this book is to expose the misuse of power that took place in this country
during the Cold War. Thousands of innocent children who have now grown into
adults are silently suffering from the effects of experiments that were done
to them by their own government. Many have been diagnosed incorrectly and
institutionalized. Some died because they knew too much. Others, like myself,
were able to obtain competent medical help, and are struggling to heal from
the physical and mental ravages upon our beings. P. xviii
For skeptics,
no proof will be enough. For others, like myself, unraveling the bizarre nature
of my memories has allowed me to regain control of my life. My greatest gift
of healing has been to no longer operate out of fear, but from a rational,
logical based reality. Will we let this story lay in the shadows forever,
or do we have the courage to address these wrongs and give survivors back
their voices? You be the judge. P. xix
A
Star is Born
It
was May of 1944. Daddy was barely out of basic training when our baby brother
got sick with pneumonia causing daddy to go AWOL, at least that’s the story
he always told. When the Navy caught up with him, he was thrown in the brig.
Experiments like those under MKULTRA subproject 39 at the Ionia State Prison
in Michigan were instituted to see if you could hypnotize a child molester
and get him to divulge his ugly little secrets. They were looking for a “Truth
Drug” that could be used on spies. A combination of drugs and hypnosis were
used for interrogation. [4]
Tests in the brig indicated Daddy was holding very dark secrets. The government
knew that at some later date this could be useful information. Blackmail was
the oldest game in the book. P. 1, 2
The
Reich surrendered on May 7, 1945. In 1946, President Truman authorized Project
Paperclip [5][6]
to exploit German scientists for American research, and to deny these intellectual
resources to the Soviet Union. A 1999 report to the Senate and the House said
that “between 1945 and 1955, 765 scientists, engineers, and technicians were
brought to the US under Paperclip and similar programs. [7] Some of the reports bluntly pointed out that
they were “ardent Nazis.” Some of the experts were accused of participating
in murderous medical experiments on human subjects at concentration camps.
P. 2, 3, xi
In 1947, President
Truman specifically assigned the CIA responsibility for covert psychological
operations. CIA personnel were not opposed to working with Nazi doctors who
had proven to be proficient in breaking the mind and rebuilding it. In some
cases military bases were used to hide these covert activities. P. 7, xvii
In December of
1947, I was born. P. 7
Since I was just
a baby in diapers when my dad started abusing me, I learned to go someplace
else in my head to preserve my sanity. After awhile, when my grandfather started
doing the same things and worse, I learned to dissociate even more. I began
creating separate parts of personalities to hold the memories of this trauma.
The technical term is alters. P. 13
Grandpa brought
with him the pedophilic traits of his forefathers. I was not
the first child to star in his pornographic films, which were distributed
to some very wealthy, notable figures, probably through the mob. Having found
this out, the CIA took advantage of this to enlist grandpa’s cooperation.
When I was four, this big shot from the CIA paid a visit to grandpa. They
were looking for children who had the ability to disassociate from reality
for a project named Bluebird/Artichoke. He talked about patriotism and how
grandpa could become a big shot and get money for helping to rid the
world of Commies. He just had to let the CIA perform a few little experiments
on me. National security was at stake. That day, it was decided that in exchange
for some money and freedom from prosecution for making child pornography,
I would become the government’s little experiment. P. 11 - 13
In
a memo [8] six months before
I was first used in experiments, Bluebird states that practical research was
to be conducted. The nature of this research [was] to include these specific
problems:
- Can we create
by post-[hypnotic] control an action contrary to an individual’s moral principles?
- Can we “alter”
a person’s personality?
- What would
be the fastest way to induce SI and H conditions?
- Can we “condition”
by post-H [hypnotic] suggestion agency employees to prevent them from giving
information to any unauthorized source?
- Can we by
H and SI techniques force a subject to travel long distances, commit specified
acts and return to us or bring documents or materials?
- Can we in
a matter of an hour, one day, etc., induce an H condition in an unwilling
subject to such an extent that he will perform an act for our benefit?
- Could we seize
a subject and in the space of an hour or two by post-H control have him
crash an airplane, wreck a train, etc.?
- Can we guarantee
total amnesia under any and all conditions?
- Can we devise
a system for making unwilling subjects into willing agents, and then transfer
control to agency agents in the field by use of codes or identifying signs? P. 13, 14
Many of the mind
control experiments that were carried out under MKULTRA were done out of fear
that the Russians were in the forefront of this field. In a CIA report made
public in the late 60s, they estimated the technical staff of one Soviet parapsychology
laboratory at 300 physicists, doctors, biochemists, and electrical engineers.
The “Red Scare” promoted by Joe McCarthy was the overriding theme of why “Anything
Goes” when it came to these experiments. P. 66
The
following day, I was put in a white panel van with my little suitcase. [After
arriving somewhere in Detroit] intense electroshock was delivered [9] in order to allow my mind to dissociate and
create Samantha who would never feel pain. In the future, whenever I was to
be put through a torturous painful experience, Samantha would automatically
be the alter who took over the body. She would hide the memory and
the pain from the rest of my system. P. 15, 18
Guy
was created, and in the coming years would display psychic abilities [10] that the CIA found very useful. Guy was taught
to store all the anger and hatred accumulated during abuse and use it psychically.
The CIA proposed a three to five year research project for exceptionally gifted
individuals who could obtain perfect and scattered ESP test performance. Since
I displayed psychic abilities, they trained Guy to use these abilities in
a way they hoped would benefit the agency. The CIA then made sure that this
project would never be made known. The document says, “It would be necessary
to be exceedingly careful about thorough cloaking of the undertaking.” [11] P. 19, 20
My
Baby part grew to love and depend on “Daddy Sid” as her only source of love
and nourishment. A deep bonding took place with Dr. Sidney Gottlieb, Directorate
of Operations of the Technical Services Staff (TSS) of CIA in charge of their
behavioral program through MKULTRA. [12]
No matter what experiment he was to make me a part of, I would love and remain
loyal to the man who my baby alter considered sole supplier of the basics
of life, food, and love. P. 19
Men
Behind the Shadow Government
1953
proved to be an important year for mind control when Allen Dulles [13] was confirmed Director of the CIA. Dulles
authorized Operation MKULTRA. Originally established as a supplementary funding
mechanism to the ARTICHOKE project, MKULTRA quickly grew into a mammoth undertaking
that outflanked earlier mind control initiatives. In 1978, Admiral Stansfield
Turner, Director of the CIA, testified that 140 Subprojects appeared to have
connection with research into behavioral modification, drug acquisition and
testing or administering drugs surreptitiously. P. 28
Among the 15 categories
of subprojects were:
- Effects of behavior drugs & alcohol: 6 subprojects involving tests
on unwitting human beings.
- Hypnosis: 8 subprojects, including two involving hypnosis and drugs in combination.
- Single
subprojects in such areas as the effects of electroshock, harassment techniques, analysis of extrasensory perception [ESP], and gas propelled
sprays and aerosols. [14]
P. 29
Under
Dulles, MKULTRA funneled funds to 185 non-government researchers and assistants
working for 80 institutions. These institutions included 44 colleges or universities,
15 research foundations or chemical or pharmaceutical companies, 12 hospitals
or clinics, and 3 penal institutions. [15]
Dulles cared little for the methods that were used to accomplish the secret
projects he funded. His brother John Foster Dulles was US Secretary of State
from 1953-1959. In Containing Communism, Mr. Dulles was quoted as saying,
“President Eisenhower surrendered all his power to me.” [16]
As long as John Foster Dulles was Secretary of State, Allen Dulles had no
need to “chafe under political control.” [17]
P. 29, 30
In
January 1951, high commissioner of occupied Germany John McCloy [18] announced that only five of the 15 death
sentences from the Nuremberg judgments would be carried out. He then reduced
the sentences of 64 out of the remaining 74 war criminals. One third of these
were to be released immediately. He also reduced the sentences of all remaining
convicted doctors who had experimented on concentration camp inmates. McCloy
had sat in Adolf Hitler’s box at the 1936 Olympic games in Berlin. P. 31
Prior to
the war, McCloy was a senior partner with Milbank, Tweed, whose most important
client was the Rockefeller family’s bank, Chase National. In 1947, McCloy
was named to head the World Bank. McCloy and two other board members spent
three months in Nelson Rockefeller’s personal home organizing the bank along
commercial lines. [19] In
the 50s, McCloy became chairman of Chase National Bank and David Rockefeller
became his protégé. P. 32
Nelson
Rockefeller [20] was appointed
Special Assistant for Psychological Strategy in 1954. Officially, Nelson was
to give advice and assistance in the development of increased understanding
and cooperation among all peoples. Unofficially, the nature of the post was
Presidential Coordinator for the CIA. As part of Nelson’s responsibilities,
he attended meetings of the Cabinet, the Council on Foreign Economic Policy,
and the National Security Council—the highest policy making body in the government.
He also functioned as the head of a secret unit called the Planning Coordination
Group, consisting of himself, the Deputy Secretary of Defense, and the head
of the CIA. [21]
P. 34
In
1979, John Loftus, working for the Office of Special Investigations, made
a trip to Maryland to search the classified files for information on Nazi’s
that had been brought into the country. He was astounded to find 20 underground
vaults crammed floor to ceiling with classified files. [22] Loftus says that Nelson Rockefeller and Vice
President Nixon supervised the cover-up and burial of these files so that
President Eisenhower could claim “plausible deniability.” [23] In fact, years later when President Gerald
Ford established a presidential commission to investigate the CIA, Vice-President
Nelson Rockefeller was named to head it. [24] P. 34
A
1951 declassified document [25]
clarifies the kind of people that were employed by the CIA to teach hypnotism.
“On 2 July 1951, instruction began with [deleted] relating some of his sexual
experiences. [Deleted] stated the he had constantly used hypnotism as a means
of inducing young girls to engage in sexual intercourse with him. [Deleted]
stated that many times while going home on [deleted], he would use hypnotic
suggestion to have a girl turn around and talk to him and suggest sexual intercourse
to him; and that as a result of these suggestions induced by him, he spent
approximately five nights a week away from home engaging in sexual intercourse.”
P. 23
All the key players
were now in various positions of government to carry on their covert activities
under a cloak of secrecy. Shadow Government was indeed an appropriate name
for the people who would move behind the scenes to enlist children to fight
their Cold War for them by making them guinea pigs, and in some cases hypnotized
operatives, couriers, spies, and assassins. P. 35
Training
for the Agency
“Precautions
must be taken not only to protect operations from exposure to enemy forces,
but also to conceal these activities from the American public in general.
The knowledge that the Agency is engaging in unethical and illicit activities
would have serious repercussions in political circles, and would be detrimental
to the accomplishment of its mission.” Quote from the CIA Inspector General
in assessing the benefits of Mind Control Research. [26]
P. 37
I was told that
I worked for “The Agency.” It was in actuality, key men and women in the CIA
and other branches of the government, in league with certain extremely wealthy
individuals who wanted to remain in the shadows shaping the outcome of world
events. As Lt. Col. Roberts said when he testified before a special joint
committee of the Wisconsin State Legislature, “The most secret knowledge,
a science which outdates history, is the science of control over people, governments
and civilizations. The foundation of this ultimate discipline is the control
of wealth. Through the control of wealth comes the control of public information.
Through the control of news media comes thought control. A significant portion
of the American public is yet to become aware of the Invisible Government
of Monetary Power.” P. 37
Early
on, an information hot line was established between the people of money and
power—people like Allen Dulles, Sid Gottlieb, Richard Nixon, and others. This
hotline enabled them to be kept informed of the content of these experiments,
and who was participating. They, in turn, found ways of blackmailing certain
of these politicians, doctors, and scientists, so that they could control
and manipulate some of the experiments. Many of the experiments started in
MKULTRA continued behind the scenes independent of most of our government
Black Projects. Burton Hersh describes the “no questions asked” as giving
“rise to that generation’s intelligence barons—its mysterious, mission-oriented
professionals who held themselves accountable to nobody, unconcerned with
constitutional limitations.” [27]
P. 38
The
Senate Intelligence Committee concluded in 1976 [28]
that the CIA used compartmentation in the MKULTRA Program to conceal their
“unethical and illicit activities.” Senator Church, who led the congressional
investigations of the CIA’s improper and unlawful actions said that the agency
was “a rogue elephant” operating above the law and out of control as it plotted
assassinations, illegally spied on thousands of Americans, and even drugged
citizens in its effort to develop new weapons for its covert arsenal.”
The Agency would use any methods it needed to achieve its goals. P. 38
Former
CIA/DIA deep-cover agent “Chip” Tatum [29]
takes this a step further when he speaks of a group he calls “Pegasus.” He
says that this group operated on behalf of the US and other governments, undertaking
tasks that ranged from narcotics smuggling to assassinations. The mission
of Pegasus, Tatum explains is “to align world leaders and financiers to our
[US] policies and standards.” P. 38
Less
you dismiss this as just another conspiracy theory, in November 1998 in an
interview with The Observer, [30]
former US Ambassador to Chile Edward Korry told a remarkable story. Korry
described still classified cables, and information censored in papers, but
now available under the FOIA. He had served under Presidents Kennedy, Johnson,
and Nixon. He told how US companies from Cola to copper used the CIA as an
international debt collection agency and investment security force. The
Observer reported that the CIA’s Oct. 1970 plot to overthrow Chile’s Allende
was the result of a plea for action a month earlier by PepsiCo chairman Kendall
to the company’s former lawyer, President Nixon. P. 39
The mind-controlled
parts of me were told they had a “Nobler Purpose” and that they “must survive
at any cost.” Yet, suicide programs were layered into my system in the event
that I should start to heal and tell. The strength and courage it has taken
to break the hold these men had on my mind, and not react to this suicide
programming, is a clear indicator of the beauty of the spirit that lay within
each of us. P. 41
The Agency arranged
with Grandfather to start my sexual training in 1954. I was forced to participate
in a traumatizing initiation rite of manhood for my 12-year-old brother on
Grandfather’s pool table. I was to totally lose my sexual self to a new persona
created from the trauma I was forced to endure. Grandfather gave
the new part the name Carlotta. From that day, he trained her in various
ways to please one particular man. He was a very wealthy man who I knew as
Rocky. He contributed large sums of money to the “Cause.” Consequently, whatever
he wanted, he got. P. 41, 42
Two years later
my grandfather and an uncle used the basement for their kiddy porn productions.
One afternoon, Grandfather walked over to the incinerator door and motioned
for me to come over. He proceeded to push my head into the opening. He made
it very clear that ashes were all that would remain of me if I didn’t cooperate.
Sometimes I would be alone and asked to pose in what I now know were provocative
poses. Other times Grandfather would have some of the other grandchildren
there with me. The fear he was able to produce guaranteed cooperation. P.
42
Momma ran away
from home. Daddy told us that if we would only be better children, she wouldn’t
run away. Guilt was a wonderful control mechanism and daddy used it effectively
every chance he got. He had such control over momma that she never had a chance.
He tracked momma down at her sister’s home several hundred miles away where
she thought she had escaped him. He brought her home, and into the mental
hospital she went. P. 43, 44
I was a physical
and emotional wreck from the nightly molestations. My hands shook uncontrollably
all of the time, and I was unable to eat or sleep. My brothers took to calling
me “Jervous and Nerky.” Momma had undergone a series of electric shocks that
left her a walking zombie. So much of her memory was gone that she had to
relearn a lot of personal information she had forgotten. P. 44, 45
Momma wasn’t alone
in receiving electroshock to make her more submissive and alter her personality.
Dr. Ewen Cameron of McGill University in Montreal, Canada was doing MKULTRA
experiments with electroshock and drugs for the CIA. Dr. Cameron was later
elected president of the American Psychiatric Association in 1953 and went
on to become the first president of the World Psychiatric Association. Such
a notable list of accomplishments for a heartless man whose experiments would
rival some that took place in Nazi Germany. P. 46
Cameron’s
experiments funded under MKULTRA Subproject 68 were called depatterning or
“psychic driving.” He combined electro convulsive therapy [ECT] with chemically
induced sleep therapy. The intensive electroshocks used in these experiments
were not the same form of ECT used routinely in the treatment of depression.
Both the voltage and the number of shocks administered were greatly increased.
Instead of stopping after the procedure had induced one grand mal seizure,
the subjects were shocked again and again until no further seizures could
be elicited. There was no question that this was a profoundly intrusive and
destructive form of electroshock, which was far different from that which
was conventionally used for therapeutic purposes. [31] P. 46, 47
While sleeping,
patients would be forced to listen to messages designed to reprogram their
behavior. Cameron wrote that psychic driving provided a way to make “direct,
controlled changes in personality.” Working with his assistant Leonard Rubenstein,
Cameron experimented with sensory deprivation combined with drugs to break
down the subject’s will and leave them open to the taped messages. In an August
2, 1977 New York Times interview, Rubenstein admitted that their work
was directly related to brainwashing. P. 47
I
was about 12 years old, and what Dr. Cameron did to me became burned in my
mind. First, I was given a shot of curare and placed in a box in a converted
stable behind the hospital that housed a behavioral laboratory. Then snakes
were put over my body and the lid was closed in the box. I was completely
conscious, but unable to move as a result of the curare. This was to
insure that I would never speak about what was to come later. [32] At the end of my programming by Dr. Cameron,
a [taped] voice gave me trigger codes for self-destruction. This was done
to prevent me from telling about the nature of this experiment in the event
I would ever begin to remember. P. 48, 52
From
January 1957 until September 1960, Dr. Cameron’s project received $64,242.44
in CIA funds. [33] When the
CIA stopped funding him, Cameron received $57,750 from the Canadian government
to continue his research. [34]
The actual number of patients [35]
on whom Cameron reported trying varieties of his experimental techniques is
reported as 332. In 1988, nine Canadian survivors agreed to an out-of-court
settlement of $750,000 after an eight-year battle with CIA lawyers. [36]
P. 52, 53
John Gittinger,
CIA agent and psychologist, was Ewen Cameron’s project officer. In testimony
before Congress on August 3, 1977, Gittinger responds to Senator Kennedy’s
questions on his involvement. “The general idea ...
is that brainwashing was largely a process of isolating a human being, keeping
him out of contact, putting him out of control, putting him under long stress
in relationship to interviewing and interrogation, and that they could produce
any change that way.” P. 53
In one of the
experiments, I was forced to lie on a table with my head immobilized. Dr.
Penfield inserted an electrode into the sleeve guides that were already imbedded
in my head. I do not remember who put the sleeve guides in. I only know that
the methods had been developed by Dr. John Lilly. P. 60, 61
Dr.
Lilly said that his experiments had proven that electrical stimuli in specific
areas of the brain could cause either intense rewarding or intense punishing
experiences in humans. He summarized, “At any time an adult human being can
be reduced to the childish level. Such a state can be induced by lack of sleep,
by starvation, by torture, by isolation, by profound confinement, by drugs,
by direct electrical stimulation. An adult can be forced to learn by means
almost thoroughly beyond his control. I am speaking here of powerful means
used ruthlessly with few scruples.” [37]
P. 62
Dr.
Lilly describes the technique of electrode implantation. [38]
“Electrodes could be implanted in the brain without using anesthesia. During
the process of implantation, there was no more pain than that of a needle
prick in the scalp. Short lengths of hypodermic needle tubing equal in length
to the thickness of the skull were quickly pounded through the scalp into
the skull. These stainless steel guides furnished passageways for the insertion
of electrodes into the brain to any desired distance. Because of the small
size of the sleeve guides, the scalp quickly recovered from the small hole
made in it, and the sleeve guide remained imbedded in the bone for months
to years. At any time he desired, the investigator could palpate [rub] the
scalp and find the location of each of the sleeve guides. Once one was found,
he inserted a needle down through the bone. After withdrawing the needle,
the investigator placed a small sharp electrode in the track made by the needle
and pressed the electrode through the skull and down into the substance of
the brain to any desired depth.” I am but one of the many children who were
the CIA’s convenient experimental subjects, used to perfect similar results
here in the US. P. 62, 67
Most
survivors seem to have more than one level of programming. [39]
P. 67
- Alpha is general
programming within the control personality.
- Beta is sexual
programming, i.e. child pornography, prostitution, and sexual training used
for the benefit of a handler for blackmail or personal use. This programming
eliminates all learned moral conviction from the survivor, so that the function
can be carried out without inhibition.
- Delta is a
trained killer, a sleeping assassin. Delta survivors feel no fear and have
been trained in the use of specialized arms and alternative methods of disposal.
- Theta is psychic
killing. Most survivors with Theta programming exhibit an unusually high
level of ESP in their day-to-day lives.
- Omega is self-destruct
programming installed in the event a survivor would start remembering. It
was used to prevent them from going public. There generally is self-destruct
programming associated with Delta assassin programming if the survivor is
captured. P. 67
As
explained in Secret Weapons, [40]
Gottlieb turned children into warriors who would be perfect Manchurian
candidates, perfect spies and assassins ignorant of their orders,
fitting into society easily and anonymously, until a code is used to awaken
them and send them into action. P. 68
Dr.
Black
Mind control survivors
have identified doctors used by the CIA under Project MKULTRA as having used
different aliases. I have personally spoken and corresponded with many of
these child Cold War survivors. It seems colors were one of the most commonly
used themes. Many survivors have identified Josef Mengele as using the aliases
Dr. Green, Dr. Black, Dr. Swartz (black in German), Father Joseph, or Vaterchen
(daddy) when he did their programming. The experiments and programming he
used on us were of such a heinous nature, that they were not unlike some of
those performed at Auschwitz. P. 69
In
1937, Mengele [41] was appointed
research assistant at the Third Reich Institute for Heredity, Biology, and
Racial Purity. Mengele provided “experimental materials” to the Kaiser-Wilhelm
Institute of Anthropology from twins including eyes, blood, and other body
parts from Auschwitz. [42]
Mengele fled Auschwitz in January 1945 before the Russians liberated the camp.
[43] French government documents
state that the Americans captured Mengele in 1946. According to the
French, Mengele “was released without explanation by the Americans on November
19, 1946.” The French claimed that American authorities confirmed the Mengele
arrest and release on Feb. 29, 1947. [44]
P. 70, 71
This is [one]
survivor’s account of contact with this escapee from Nazi
Germany. ”The insidious part of his work with me was the love thing. He would
love me and torture me. One of Mengele’s favorite phrases was, ‘Pain is pleasure,
and pleasure is pain, my dear. I am here to make you very happy! You will
love me forever!’ I remember being on the floor with him playing piano in
nothing but his boots and a tuxedo coat with tails, as he ordered the men
working with him to shock me with cattle prods while he played. It was sort
of like musical chairs. When he stopped playing, they stopped shocking; or
when he played, they stopped, according to which rules he used that week!”
P. 80
I, too, was privy
to Mengele’s torture in 1956 when I was almost nine years old. I was placed
in one of these cages, and like the others, deprived of food and water. I
became very cold and continually hunched over to hide my nakedness. Every
time I tried to sleep, someone with a cattle prod reached through the bars
and poked me. The purpose of all this torture was to prepare us for programming.
There was a hospital where each of us was taken after the torture made us
compliant. P. 81, 82
Another survivor
reports “abuse to create many traumatized alters to use in programming more
specific functions later on. Mengele split the alters so that one would remember
him being very loving, but it included a lot of sexual abuse, and other parts
would experience terror at his cruelty. With the first alter, he created the
experience that he was inside our mind being very nurturing and teaching her
[the alter] that she will always want only him. With another alter, he was
mean, creating a rage alter by killing a little boy she had felt bonded with
as her little protector.” P. 84
Another survivor
says, “Using me as their guinea pig, Dr. Black taught dad how to create alter
states in children. He would begin by traumatizing the host personality, and
then traumatize each resulting alter state until it went ‘under.’ Each time
a part went under, and a new part with no memory emerged, dad assigned this
part of the broken personality a name. He recorded the names and traits each
alter-state [had]. Being an engineer, he usually used flowcharts
and blueprints.” P. 84 “
Yet another survivor, “Dr. Black somehow attached chains to my
wrists and ankle. He inserted the object into me ‘down there’ from behind.
When the charge hits the nervous system, everything hurts and contracts in
a hellish fashion. I did start saying aloud over and over again, ‘I’m sorry’
(for what, it didn’t matter) and ‘I’ll be a good girl, I promise, I promise….’
He may have hypnotized me, because his eyes got darker as I looked up at them,
and I heard his left fingers snap and the shackles were gone. I thought he
was a magician. That made him seem all the more powerful to me. After that,
he told me that only with him would I be safe. I understood that if I stayed
loyal to him, I would not be hurt again. The doctor told dad the he, the doctor,
and others worked on each person until they were ready to do whatever they
were told. He said the final test had been for friends and close relatives
of the prisoners to be brought there. The prisoners were then ordered to attack
their loved ones and kill them. He also talked about breeding. Dad was considered
'closer' to perfection because he had the blond hair and gray-blue eyes and
was in excellent physical condition." P. 87 - 89
In 1998, Congress
passed a law requiring declassification of Nazi war criminals files held by
US intelligence agencies. The CIA had refused to acknowledge the existence
of these records up, not unlike their continued denial of
many other things until they are faced with irrefutable evidence from outside
sources. 10,000 pages of declassified CIA files were released on April 27,
2001, detailing working relationships with some of the same Nazi’s that were
wanted for war crimes. P. 97
The web of secrecy
that made the Holocaust possible is the same web that allowed innocent children
in the US to become victims of their government’s fear of communism. If we
allow that web of secrecy to continue because it is too painful and horrifying
to read about and believe, nothing will prevent it from happening again. Too
many children, including myself, were systematically brainwashed. Our minds
became our concentration camp. Only now by healing and speaking out, have
we become liberated. P. 98
Conclusion
Four years into
marriage, my programming started to deteriorate and my memories began to haunt
me. My struggle to free myself was the most difficult road I had walked.
Many times I survived solely because others believed I could. I cried enough
tears in the last ten years to turn the Sahara desert into an oasis. As the
healing continued, I found a new person hiding beneath the splintered
diamonds of my personality. Integrating the facets of these troubled pieces
of myself came as I understood that I no longer had to walk the trail of tears
from the past. I could at last be free to choose my path. It was all such
a marvelous discovery—this freedom of mind, this tranquility, this peace.
P. 102
My handlers no
longer contact me. The last time they tried by phone to activate an alter
with preprogrammed cues, they failed. The man who phoned was extremely upset.
He and so many others believed our programming would never break down. What
they could never foresee was the indomitable fighting nature that perhaps
they themselves had instilled. The need to find the truth and expose it was
much larger than the fear they used to control me. P. 103
I don’t believe I’m special.
I’m just one of many Cold War children who were convenient lab rats for
a group of despicable people. I thank God for the accountants of the world
and the records they keep. Without those MKULTRA, Bluebird, and Artichoke
documents, my story would sound like just science fiction.
By exposing the truth, I have at last been able to free much of my own hatred
and pain. Understanding, speaking the truth, and forgiveness frees. The truth
can set us free. P. 103
A daughter remains
loyal to her father after being violated because he uses his power to keep
her silent and submissive. Many times the secret remains hidden for decades.
So too, due to the top-secret classification of these files, the entire picture
of covert experimentation has remained hidden from the very citizens who themselves
were used as guinea pigs. A child who is removed from a hostile environment
and then placed in an environment where it receives protection, can recover
and lead a productive life. P. 101
We too, as a nation, can recover form the horrendous
effects of this abuse of power, if we will only speak out. We must not let
this lay dormant in the shadows of secrecy any longer. We can bury the hardships
and deceit of the past by building a government that is worthy of our trust.
The foundation of that trust must be built on truth, not secrecy. P. 101
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